Why Do I Love Jesus?

So I know for alot of people out there who don't really believe in Jesus and they don't believe that he is the savior of the world I just wanted to tell a little of my story and tell you why I absolutely love Jesus! For many Jesus was real but he did not do all the things that the Bible said that he did. Historians can show proof that Jesus existed but they cannot show proof that Jesus existed and that he walked this earth but all the wonderful many awesome things that he did while he was here they cant believe exist.

Just to let you know there was a time in my life where I did not believe that Jesus existed. *gasp* I know right! LOL for those of you who know me out there Jesus is my main squeeze and I want to try to be the best I can e for him as he is for me, but there was a time in my life where I would ask myself why do I try so hard to impress someone who I never seen or even believe exist!?!?!?!?

You know I grew up in the church and I would see all these miracles happen to other people but they would ever happen to me. People would always talk about this warmth that they felt when he came into their lives and his love just completely overtook them, BUT I WAS NOT GETTING ANY OF THAT!!!!
I would be so depressed and even thought and attempted to kill myself on many occasions and just wanted to completely give up and you know you had my church friends just always be like "keep going" "stay encouraged". and you know say all those uplifting things that they are supposed to say right out of the Christian handbook, but I STILL WASN'T GETTING ANY OF IT!!!!!
So, to make a log story short don't want to ramble, I finally came to my breaking point where I thought my family was against me and I had told them I hated them, I felt like the black sheep and I felt like I didn't fit in anywhere not even with my group of friends that I called my "besties" and I just wanted to get in my car ad drive and try to kill myself in a car accident, but then one day, I was at church and I was sitting int he choir stand and Jesus and God and the Holy Spirit had just over taken me! That warm gooey feeling that people say they feel when they encounter Gods love and when they encounter the love of Jesus I finally felt it! The best description I can give is that I felt like an oooooey gooey chocolate chip cookie that was melting and globbing together and all I could do was weep and cry and when I say cry I mean I was balling and doing that ugly cry because I had FINALLY felt what all the hype was! It was finally revealed to me how much I was chosen and how I was meant to stand out and to be different and that I had a purpose to fulfill on this planet. He showed me that it is OK to be weird and that it is OK to be different and to STOP TRYING TO FT IN!!!!
Sometimes i think that people fail to realize all that trying to attempt to fit into a specific crowd is completely USELESS AND EXASPERATING!!!! I just don't understand why people all want to look alike and sound alike and dress alike when he created us to stand out, to break out f that conventional mold that the earth has placed on us! One thing that I have learned is that not just as a Christian but as a person is that to love everyone, not to judge anyone for their past, present, or future mistake just take them for who they are.

So my question to you is even if you are not a Christian because I love all people on this blog when did you come to that realization of you have a purpose and a job to do on this earth and a job to change the world

So guys I just watched this really cool documentary that these college students did about Christianity, and they went around the country asking random people that they met about Jesus. So if you wanna check it out it is on Netflix, but tell me what you think!!!

Hi everyone, my name is Emerald and I am the bible study coordinator for YCA and this is the blog that I am starting for our YCA website and just to talk. So lets start off by telling you what YCA is and some of the things that it stands for. YCA is an acronym for Youth Christian Association, and our goal is to share the love of God to our fellow college students and to our community. Just to put in a disclaimer just because we are a christian org does not mean you have to believe in what we believe in; our org is open to all different religious backgrounds. So I just wanted to start this blog to encourage, to ramble, to show some love, to just say hey, to answer questions, to help, to do whatever you guys need me to do. I LOVE YOU ALL SO LETS START BLOGGING!!!!!!